Full Disclosure

Ok - I want a re-do. A chance to once again 'try again'. And, since it's a new year I'm entitled to it right? Well, I'm hoping that by using this blog as a means of accountability, pursuing a healthy lifestyle might actually be possible as we kick off a new decade. So, I'm joining my friend C in an attempt to make better choices. Like C, I absolutely cannot say the "D" word (diet!) or I will be consumed by it, fight against the act of "D"ing, and honestly turn into a wretched woman that no child or human should ever have to encounter. I simply can't diet - or can I? This pursuit has always been something I've had to do on my own - and left to my own devices I lie, cheat and steal (yes, there is still an empty box of thin mints hiding under my bed that I stole from my husband last summer). So, this will be the first time I fully disclose my poor habits, my self loathing and my daily challenges and tribulations when it comes to food. I'm not going to lie - I need help. But this time I can't afford to pay for a magic pill. This time, it's all me and C. Two women capable of empowering each other but not ourselves. So, we plan to feed each other our own medicine and see if this route will do the trick. I have to do this over time and with support and stop hiding my feelings, stop talking a talk I've yet to walk. I can honestly say if there is a fad diet I've done it - including convincing my husband that spending $400 for hcg injections was going to do it this time - "swear"! That was just my latest of many, many dieting mistakes made in this short life. Here's a resolution to not make too many more.

Following C's lead - here is the low down on me:
Age - 35
Current weight - 195
Height - 5' 4
Heaviest - 212 (after first child)
Lowest - 127 (age 23)
Body Fat - 46% (I have one of those fancy schmancy scales and I hope it's broken, that is high!!!)



Let's see if this full disclosure thing works. Have to be completely honest, already not liking it. I'm a private person (its the Scorpio in me) but we'll see if this works - at this point, I'll try anything.

~M