I Think I Broke My Plateau / Down 55? / New Benchmark

I had been stuck for a long while between 151 and 147 lbs, like for months. I had resolved myself to the fact that the scale probably wouldn't go much lower and really only wanted to see it dip to 146 so I could officially say I lost a full 50lbs. And then I took a Zumba class and my weight plummeted into the 130s. Say what?? As much as I wanted to believe it was that low, I had a very rough time imagining that I weighed myself Thursday morning and was 145.8 and then by Thursday night I was down to 140 and then 138 in the morning. But the crazy part is that it is now Saturday night and I am still weighing in at 140. Now I haven't gone so far as to replace the batteries in the scale (which might clear things up), but I think there may be some truth to where my weight is right now. I think I may have actually broken my plateau!!

This is significant for a few reasons. For one, it means I have actually lost 55 lbs since August 10, 2011. And the second reason is more emotional for me. When I was 15 or 16 I was severely bulimic and I remember stepping on the scale at home and I weighed 140 lbs. I distinctively remember my best friend's mom telling me how great I looked (her daughter was stick thin) and that I was able to wear this tight brown shirt that previously didn't look very good on me. I was sick. I did not see myself as I was and I battled my fear and loathing of food on a moment to moment basis. Now, as a fairly well-adjusted adult who has been married for 9 years and has given birth to two beautiful children, I weigh what I did back then. And I am no longer sick. I see myself truthfully when I look in the mirror. And my personal worth has absolutely nothing to do with the number on the scale.

That's something I am extremely proud of!

~C